It's been a while since the last time I wrote in here. It's hard to find a moment here and there to write, to think, to reflect and to just be "Janie"- I do write every day trying to finish some books I'm writing, editing and so forth. I couldn't sleep last night, my mind filled with so much to do, say, finish, start, clean, cook, etc. It's very difficult to be a working mother, I'm not sure the world really understands how hard it is to work, be "mom" and even harder to have a dream to accomplish. Even so I'm not complaining. I love it every bit of it. It just makes life more interesting and full of love. I'm so proud of all of them.

I'm currently editing a book I wrote about a year ago. I have to fine tune it, edit, re-write some scenes the Title is "Dear Serenity" and I'm completely hooked on the book I'm currently writing "WhoreHound" it's the complete opposite of "Dear Serenity" "WhoreHound" is gritty, raw, and takes you on a journey in the early 60's in Marseille, France where Charlotte the main character is on a mission. I hope to reflect the writers I've grown up loving, James Clavell, Taylor Caldwell, Jack London. I'm not comparing myself to them in any way, shape or form, but I'd like to have the heart that is in their stories, the drive, the passion. It's a strange life, to be a writer, to have all these stories and characters in your head, to sit in a room alone, with your own thoughts and nothing else, the blinking cursor waiting for you to tell it what to do. Sometimes the blinking cursor is the enemy and sometimes it's divine inspiration.

Here's a poem- just because I haven't written one in a while....Let's see what do I want to say?

People say, things happen for a reason
That there is a time and a season
for everything-

Sometimes it's hard to understand
What's the next lesson?
What am I missing?
Am I still on the right road?
Making the right choice?

There's no real way to know
Divine Fate
Blind Faith
Every day I move forward a bit
I let go of the past and I look to the future

I still have this hurricane in my heart
I still have nights when old memories take hold
I still wonder why things were the way they were
I've try not to make sense of it, because I know I can't

Divine  Fate
Blind Faith
Love pulls me closer
The chaos seems further

Sometimes it's hard to understand
My journey is long, my road hasn't been easy
I'm moving slower
Still holding on
Divine Fate
Blind Faith
Take over

Janie-